I've Been Gone A Long Time

I tried to shut my humanity back out. I did it.

It's almost impossible to shut off your emotions.

I've wanted to do that, so bad. But that's the thing, you can't. You'll feel nothing. Ever.

Is there a master or method  that can help me to shut down all emotions and close my heart permanently. Human beings are weak because of emotions and love. Anger, hatred and rage are strong, but irrational, and love happiness and joy don't do any good.